Yet To Let Him Go

I wondered if my life's getting better. Though things were slowly back on its track, what's lost had been replaced, but the hole in me was never filled. As time went by, it just made my longing for him even stronger. Many sleepless nights thinking of him. It's coming 3 months yet I still couldn't let go of him. I thought I could manage it well but after all, I was just deluding myself. The more I told my friends that I had let go, the more I had not. Part of me still holding on, hoping that 1 day he would be back in my life again. But deep inside me, I knew that chances were slim. Almost negligible. But why am I still hanging on? Haven't I torment myself enough? No matter how many guys I have met or how many ex-lovers that I have bumped into, I simply couldn't bother to take any interest in them. Because he was rooted deeply in my heart. I felt lonely & cold in my world. It was the longingness & hollowness in me that made me felt very empty.

**I'm going MIA from today onwards. I don't feel like facing this world yet. I would be uncontactable for the time being till I have recovered. Friends, do take care. Thanks for being by my side but sorry that I have let you all down. After all, I'm not as strong & tough as I appeared to be. Don't worry so much about me. Would take good care of myself.