Heartaches

Heartaches are the most painful & unbearable pain of all. In fact, it can kill a person. But no matter how painful it is, we have to learn how to manage it. Just let time does its job. Slowly, as time goes by, the pain will fade away. Many people will be telling me it's "easier said than done", which is true. But other than that, there is no other better remedy for heartaches.

Christmas Eve 2009

Ho ho ho!!! It's Christmas Eve again. For the past few Christmas Eves, I'm always out having a happening day & countdown to Christmas. But this year is a different one. I'm staying in at home watching TV & sleeping my day away. Hmmm, it's not bad thou, no booze, no nonsense & no hangover the next day. Ho ho ho!!! Today is the first day of my diet control plan. I'm dying to have a toned body & toned legs. So besides working out, I also need to watch my diet. LOL. Plans for tomorrow would be Day 1 work out at the Lower Seletar Reservoir. I'm gonna be gorgeous & man-killer lady at 25. It's my first 2010 resolution. ;P

2nd Day Of School Holidays

Finally, I'm done with my things & would be turning in soon. Not bad a day. Work was good. No hiccup. Just that I still have this lazy spirit in me but I believed it would be gone soon. Though I no longer rotted, lazed & daydreamed the whole day at home, still, I missed him.

1st Day Of School Holidays

Finally, today is the first day of my school holiday. I have spent my time sleeping & resting at home to recuperate from my sore throat & cold. I am recovering well. Now, I am thinking of how should I spend my holidays fruitfully. Think the first thing I should do is to recuperate & rejuvenate my emo state. I have been in the lowest point of my life long enough, it is really time I should do something about it. Or not my dad's gonna chase me out of the house with a chopper. Second thing would be to earn as much as I could now. Besides earning, I must also save. Gonna graduate in 2 months time. Think should start planning a nice getaway after I'm done with my exams. Thirdly, I am planning to use this 3 weeks break to do as much revision as I could. When my school starts, all the tests & exams are coming. Gosh!!! Gonna mug & mug. I guess this would be the most boring year end I ever have. Oh man, it's a month where people would be out enjoying & celebrating but I would be staying at home or working most of the time. But I believe all these are worth it as I would get the double the returns.

Yet To Let Him Go

I wondered if my life's getting better. Though things were slowly back on its track, what's lost had been replaced, but the hole in me was never filled. As time went by, it just made my longing for him even stronger. Many sleepless nights thinking of him. It's coming 3 months yet I still couldn't let go of him. I thought I could manage it well but after all, I was just deluding myself. The more I told my friends that I had let go, the more I had not. Part of me still holding on, hoping that 1 day he would be back in my life again. But deep inside me, I knew that chances were slim. Almost negligible. But why am I still hanging on? Haven't I torment myself enough? No matter how many guys I have met or how many ex-lovers that I have bumped into, I simply couldn't bother to take any interest in them. Because he was rooted deeply in my heart. I felt lonely & cold in my world. It was the longingness & hollowness in me that made me felt very empty.

**I'm going MIA from today onwards. I don't feel like facing this world yet. I would be uncontactable for the time being till I have recovered. Friends, do take care. Thanks for being by my side but sorry that I have let you all down. After all, I'm not as strong & tough as I appeared to be. Don't worry so much about me. Would take good care of myself.