She's Gone

Yesterday was the worst day for my whole family. My mum had left us. When she broke the news to me in the morning over our breakfast, I was pretty calm & normal. I felt nothing. However, as the evening approached & she was ready to move her belongings out, I began to feel weird. Something's not feeling right in me. I did not know if it was the numb or ache I was feeling. But I choose to ignore it & behave my usual self in front of my mum. I was the only one to see her off. But what a raining cats & dogs evening. This evening I did not like at all. Because my family was not perfect anymore. It was broken. After she had left, I knew in my heart that the family burden of taking care of my dad & siblings had fallen on my shoulders. While waiting for the rain to stop, she had a chat with me. I was the only one who knew where she's putting up. She asked me to take good care of my brothers & looked after my dad. She would be in contact with me via mobile. If I were to have any problem, I could look for her for a drink, a meal or could even stay overnight at her place. These were her words before she left. Though I did feel sad but I want her to leave this place happily. So I have put up a brave front. We both had smile on our faces as we bid each other goodbye. She looked different. She looked relieved & happy which was what my brothers & me wanted for her. Since the age of 18, she had been very dependent on my dad. This was the first time that she was on her own. I did feel worried for her but I believed she could make it alone outside. If she were to have any trouble, I would be there for her. I wished her all the best.

P.S. Mum, I love you & do live well. No matter how tough life is, never look back. Move on bravely.