Rainy Night

It is raining cats & dogs now. The weather is cold. I love rainy nights, especially during this hour. It makes the night romantic. It makes me want to walk down a street, alone in the rain with street lights over my head at this hour. It would feel so good that it is just like being in love. Rainy night like this reminds me of a friend who once told me that "the best thing to do on a rainy night is making-love"....

Wrecked Marriage

A family tree starts with a man & a woman falling in love, marry & having offspring to continue the family line. This makes them our parents. In each of the trees, they have their own individual stories. What's mine? It is a total disasterous. When parents fall out & no longer have love for each other, things in the family eventually get screwed. When there is an involvement in monetary problem, things get even nastier. Unfortunately, they are my stories. Things between my parents have reached a point that now they are at war. It is a "You want to be cruel? I can be even more cruel than you!!! Let's see who will be the last man standing?" war. Knowing & hearing the situation & things involved, I realized my parents have never think about their children feelings & their well-being. Do they know that though on the surface we may appear to be ignorant but actually we feel sad for them. We do feel hurt. I have always wondered why my parents are so different from the others. I miss those happy moments with my family & my parents' loving days. But those moments are short-lifed just like fireworks. I regretted taking those time for granted. I know those days will never come back into my life again. No matter what the outcome is, I know I must not let the situation affects my studies, work & life. I know I must be strong.

一个人的精彩

My sky used to be gloomy. Everything in my world looked bleak. Those were the tough days. I was once lost, been a troublemaker for people around me & had thrown myself into a slump. It was when things got out of hands & a massive breakdown that I finally woke up. No matter what had happened, life still has to move on because time waited for no one.

I still have a long path in front of me. I still have a future. I have dreams to achieve. I want to live a good life. This time, I will live for myself.

Goodbye to my oldself.

Over You

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

P.S. Everything's over, DW.